Today this working mother thing is not working out. I have IMs flashing at me from coworkers who want to know why their projects aren’t complete and missed phone calls from other staff members who have questions or problems to be addressed. I chose to ask for forgiveness not permission this morning and forgiveness did not come easy. But, I am picking my battles today.
My vow to not work on weekends has led to deadlines that are so far passed they’re wearing high tops and scrunchies. I feel overwhelmed looking at my to do list. There is not enough of me to go around. I am treading water today.
Or I was until someone scheduled a meeting that will put me home after C should have been fed and halfway to bed. I don’t want to go to the meeting and miss half of the two hours I get with her a night. And instead of handling it like a grown up or sucking it up and doing it anyway, I fight back tears and pray that no one walks in my office. Thus becoming the working mother I never wanted to be.
So, someone tell me. Drinking at lunch? Surely it has saved someone’s sanity, right?
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I wanted a margarita at 8 am. There’s GOT to be another solution for working moms. There are too many of us out here saying “How do you do it?” Let’s start a revolution!!
Or a company with flexible work arrangements…
Ugh, I’m sorry to hear you’re having such a sucky day. And it’s stuff like this that makes me so sad and scared to think about having to go back to work after the little dude is born.
It’s just not fair that there aren’t better options for mom’s out there! It’s not fair that there aren’t more flexible hours. It’s not fair that there aren’t more on-site daycare facilities. It’s not fair that to survive these days, both parents have to work.
It’s not fair.
You’re singing to the choir! Diet Coke and a couple of Advil get me through most days.
I feel ya! I have those very same days…that’s what really sucks about having a work ethic, huh? “Hang in there” is easier said than done but you’ll get through it!
“…deadlines that are so far passed they’re wearing high tops and scrunchies” if it makes you feel any better you made me LOL with this line!
Some days will naturally be worse than others. Tomorrow is a new day
**hug**
I see nothing wrong with drinking at lunch. But then again, I’ve been known to crack open a bottle of wine at noon a few times as of late.
I hope it gets better for you, I can’t imagine how conflicted you must feel :/
Drinking at lunchtime might be a short term salvation
Seriously though – I’m due back at work in approx 2 months. I have a big girls’ job where they expect me to put in the hours you’re putting in and I’m wondering how I can give to my job AND cope with seeing D for only 2 hours/day. What I really wish was that there were more 3 day/wk jobs. That would be a win-win. My friend who’s super astute said something to me recently on this when I lamented on this. “You can have your cake and eat it too – just not at the same time”. Sage.
I wish I could drink at lunch. I have to go back to teach some stoned youth…perhaps they wouldn’t notice, though…hmmmm.
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